My First Mother's Day Without You

I thought of you first thing this morning
But that is nothing new
I thought of you yesterday
And probably will tomorrow too

But today it was different
I did not feel longing or regret
I thought of you and felt pity
Because I have something you will never get

I did not get to sleep in late
Or get breakfast in bed
But I awoke very early
To "I love yous" in my head

Because our children woke me up
Just like they do every day
with smiles, hugs, and kisses
While in a bed of  sin you lay

You don't admit, you still lie
and pretend you are doing fine
But your body betrays you and tells the truth
With your sagging eyes and receding hair line

So claim your victory, and pump your fists
Live your life vicariously
I have what you will soon miss
And they wake up every morning with me