S.I.L. Part 4

Ok, so it continues, to see the first 3 parts, follow these links: Part 1 , Part 2 , and Part 3!!!

My "Suck It" List.  Things I am going to do, just to prove them wrong. 

10. Wear a bikini-Technically I could wear one now, but I doubt anyone would appreciate it. I want to wear a bikini and make it “do what it do”. I want to turn heads. I want the sight of me in a bikini to men sweat, women envy, and exes regret. I will do it. It will be hard, but it will be done.


11. Sleep under the stars-Ok I think I would love this, but with a few stipulations. There cannot be bugs, so that might just nix this idea all together. I love the idea of camping and being outdoors and being one with nature and all that crap, but I do not like bugs. uugghhh I mean, who do they think they are?  I get it, you can fly....I am pretty jealous, but I don't need you all up in my business.

12. Take a Dance Class-Ok if you have ever seen me dance; you have probably wanted to pay for me to have one of these. I have no rhythm. I can’t dance. But I want to learn how. Actually I want to learn a routine or a few moves that I could pop out anytime and it would work. People would think I had natural ability, but reality I am counting in my head and trying really hard not to look like I am having full body convulsions.

13. Truly love with all of my heart (a man) -And not regret it. I want to love with all of me. I want to give all of me to someone, without the fear of being hurt or rejected. I want to let down the barriers that I have kept up for so long. I want to love so completely that even if it did not work out, I could not regret the experience. And of course, I would love to be loved back. I want it all.  I have been given a second chance, and I want to take it. 


14. Fight for something I believe in-I want to start a petition. Lead a rally. Have a sit-in. I want to truly fight for what I believe in and take the necessary steps to make a change. I think I would be awesome at this. I just don’t have a “cause” yet. Most political issues I do not feel that strongly about, I am not into saving things like animals and nature, and I don’t believe in global warming. I want to fight for something personal. It may end up being a small battle, like the one I am fighting for my children, but I want to fight hard, fair, and I want to win.