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Sunday, April 3, 2011

I am done trying to save you

I am done.  I now realize I cannot convince you to see your sins and to be a good person.  It is so obvious to the rest of the world, but I guess you will have to crash and burn on your own.  It is unfortunate that my children have to be pawns in your little life-crisis.  But I am going to focus on us (my children and I) now.  I wish you could be who they need you to be.  This is not about me.  I am fine.  I am a grown-up and will move on and heal.  I have already begun to do just that, but what you have done will have a permanent impression on my children. 
They are what this has always been about. I am not looking for revenge.  I have no desire to try to rebuild what we had because there would always be doubts, and I know that there is an amazing man out there for me.  A man who will love me for who I am, love my children, and be an honest and caring person.  All traits I once thought you to have.  He will also be romantic, but not overly so.  He will love God above all else.  Have a good sense of humor.  Have a career he is proud of. (the amount of money he makes is not important)  I know what I want and I will not settle for less.  He will also have some other, amazing traits, but they are not things I would share with the public ;)
So I am moving on and focusing on the future of me and my children.  I thought I could save you from yourself, but I can't and it is not my job.  I forgive you, but I no longer pity you.  I forgive you, but I will never forget.  I forgive you, but you are on your own. 
What you do is your business, but if your crazy ever spills over onto my children....hell hath no fury.

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